Heeeeeey's
Blloggging again, yes i know no life :(. Can't help it, poly's not starting as quickly as it should be..
Yes i can't sleep, 2.30 in the morning feels like it's 8pm or something..This is really bad for my skin, but i really like the kick for sleeping till noon, i think about you a lot less now, YAY! (no comments about the dreaming though).

Just this week i've been to the doctor's for my appointment again, guess what!! This time i don't have to get any jabs! This after 9 appointments and a LOT of injections. The next checkup is in June (the doc decided he didnt need to see it every month anymore) and hopefully it'll be the last.

I'll really miss wearing earings, now looking at the earings i haven't had a chance to try on i think: "this sucks", but NO WAY am i EVER going to risk going through all that again.
I reeeeeeeally thank people who tried not to freak out while i still had "it", people who cared enough to ask as well as people who were sensitive enough to not mention it.

When i had "it" i felt like it was the end of the world. I didn't break down (cept in front of the bestest friends), no that would'nt be me, i kept a smiley mask, i was immune to all comments, hurtful, insensitive questions. Suuuure it wouldn't kill me, but i think it left a great impact on me. I had a crush then. When the doctor asked if i wanted to do it after O's (just in case of any mishaps) i insisted to do it as early as possible. ANYTHING as long as i wasn't the "freak" anymore. All the talk about "the inside that counts" thats nonsense.

I can't wait to meet new people, i can't wait to see him. I wonder if he really is the one.
I had a dream quite a while ago. It involved me and a guy (no details :P) and just the other day i saw him. Having mixed feeling about finding out if he really is the one. If the dream came true, that would mean we did'nt last because he certainly was'nt the one i married (in another dream). But then again it can be changed right?

I wonder what will happen.